ii wana l0ve, l0ve w/o hurting ..

ydae was a nyte uf gan kaii ..
siigh` seriously, im sho sick uf lyfe.
y? there a few factors that add upp ta thiis ..

1. ii hate being alone
it suck ta b al0ne. having fwens n a bf/gf ishh diff` no one reali n0es haw im feel9, sumtyms, neither d0 ii.

2. sick uf singapore's fashion trendd
duhhs` damn. everything seems da same. ydae went shoppie, shoppd fer dunoe haw l0n9, nuttin nice ~ those nice ones- damn it, ex =.-x d0ts. uu can c signs uf deisgns uf other shopps in d other ..diaos'

..sh0 on n sh0 f0rthh~

:: lurve lyfe ::
seb seb seb. after our meeting on da 24th, he saidd he wishh ta b left alone- lyk for those few daes. hmm` yeahh- =.-x damn, it was when mua com was down! suckd. well, that's besides da p0int. til naw ii sti dun0e y he nids ta b al0ne. y da sudden urge uf wanting ta b left alone. duhhs- he said he cant ferget his ex ..sheena' a gerl he said he gave everything t0, everything. no 0ne's able ta persuade him 0utta this, n that includes m a e. sho dumbb- but as ii learnt from dexter, these kinda things cant b taught. it must b learnt. learn through mistakes. experience it urself, then uu wil learn. sho, yeahh' shan't tel him wart's he's supp0se ta d0 n stuff. uu c~ coshh he d0esn't noe wart we'r t0king bout til he experiences it. there's sho many qns that's going thru mua mind everydae ..d0es he lyk mae? wart shud ii d0 naw? wart m ii expectd? siighs.* these kinda things jux suckd ..as da t0piic uf this post, ii wana l0ve, w/o hurting. yeahhs` but im unable t0 ..jux sh0 darn'

ii'v t0t b0ut this ..lyk` d0 ii lyk him? d0 ii treat him as an0ther guy wh0m ii said ii lyk but ishh jux an0ther substitude fer dexter? fer da sec0nd qn .. ii seriously haf an ans- it ishh that he's definately nort a sub. coshh ii dun feel for dexter animore. after dexter, da onli guy ii wil b tynking ab0ut wil b him n him n him. ain't this gerl here dumbb. seriously ii felt im dumbb too. fallin' into trapps uf lurve once again. w/o learning frm previous mistakes' d0tx. then again ..ii dun0e wart ii shud d0` haiis.

he's g0ing japan fr0m 10th - 15th uf febb. nice w0rs* mua wishh ta g0 japan agains. ii w0nder when` aniwae- ii tynk mayb ii shud b sending him uff nors* ii dun0e peii can acc0mpany mae n0rts' h0pe sh0 ((: g0t smth fer him ..heyys' that tym mua bro gave mae ch0cs n ii saw it. ii wana leave it fer him, yeahh ((: alth0ugh we'r nort couple. ii jux feel lyk giving it ta him. c= o0hh, after ii get mua pay, gona treat him g0 kb0x nehhs. h0pe nort verii gan ga huhs, haa*

14th uf febb. valentines' dae ~ ain't it s0und great? but yeahh .. darn. im w0rk9 on that freak9 dae. n0 date n stuff' aniwae, valentine's jux a n0rmal dae fer mae ((: h0pe mua w0rk wif janice wil b fun th0ugh ~ hehhs.

:: work ::
ii jux naw received a c0r fr0m supervis0r, asking mae if ii wana w0rk as full tym. ii agreed, since ii'v g0t nuttin ta d0o everydae. ii'v decided ta fill mua lyfe wif jux w0rk n w0rk n nuttin else ii supp0se. ii cant wait ta get mua pay, darn. ii wan ta highlight mua hair BLUE soon! >_< madd sehhs-

g0na go sh0ppie again on m0n ii tynk. h0pe g0t sh0u huo yeahh ~ ((: feel9 sh0 b0redd naw, tynk g0na endd mua p0st yeah? sh0 til then ..cia0s*