reflecting 0n tings that had been happen9.

pig read mua bl0g.
he said that ..he felt that 'he' dun lyk mae.
n said, its bc0x uf l0oks.
guys g0 f0r l0oks. that's wart pig said'
seri0usly, im vehh c0nsci0us.
that set mae tynk9-
mayb pig's ryte. o0r isit ..

haiis' damn im sh0 blur uf everything.
jux naw t0kd ta peii 0n f0ne,
she t0ld mae b0ut ah l0n9's stuff.
hen sadded- made mae tynk uf ..
mae n 'him'. seri0usly, wart r we?
ii tynk that's a dumbb qn ta ask.
we'v always been fwens. okaes' that's da ans.
but im n0rt satisfied. w0 ha0 bu fu qi'
siigh- f0r daes, he neh reply w0 d sms,
onli chatted 0nline. whie? =c.

sh0 many things set mae tynk9.
ii shud giv upp'
II NOE !! ii n0e ii shudd.
but it ain't sae ..n it's d0ne.
as da saeing g0es, "easier said than done."
if ii sae ii dun lyk him anim0re,
im lying. if ii ever did that. ii wun b sadd f0r him.
jux naw tynk til nearly cry,
eyes watery d ~ haiis.
wei she m0 wo zhu ding yao wei bgr stuff er fan na0?
ha0 sha ~uu ask9 mae n0rt ta lyk uu.
if ii can, ii'd haf d0ne that l0ng ago.
ii w0uldn't haf met uu.
things w0uldn't turn 0ut lyk this.

w0 ha0 bu fu~
he t0ld mae that in da theatres,
his mindd ish full uf sheena.
at that tym ii nearly br0ked0wn'
ii sat beside a guy,
hu's mindd tynk9 b0ut an0ther gerl.
n ii n0e nuts b0ut it-
im jux n0rt g0od nuff.
darn, mua zi bei-ness gett9 str0n9er.
everything's changing after da meet9'
al in al, wart's wr0ng?
:: ans :: ii dun0e-

sh0 many uncertainty.
sh0 haw m ii supp0sed ta n0e wart ii wan'
ii ain't able ta judge things.
even if ii wan, wart can ii d0o?
s0methings jux d0nt g0 ur wae.
lyfe's lyk that, ain't?
~t0rtuous lyfe. when isit g0na endd'
o0r rather, can ii b hapii?
at least f0r 0nce.
let da hapiiness b f 0 r e v e r