are pr0mises meant ta b br0ken?

mua th0ts after chatting ta uu..
o.o n here it g0es ..

uu pr0mised n0rt ta hurt mae ..
uu said uu lyk mae ..
then uu said uu l0ve mae ..
" ii missd uu todae "
" yeah im jeal0us "
" love uu "
wow ~ uu br0ught mae upp, n then- bringing mae baq d0wn in such an instant.
uu cant ans mua qns c0sh it's t0o t0ugh fer uu ..
til naw ii dun believe u'r a pr0mise breaker.
t0 mae, u'r n0rt one.
ii truely believe uu'r hao ren, ii d0.

u'r ur own obstacle.
n0 one can helpp uu ..
uu mux b willing ta overc0me this 0bstacle urself,
i'll definately b there fer uu if uu nid mae.
ii pr0mise.
ii pr0mised n0rt ta hurt uu, ii wun.
ii said ii lyk uu, ii d0.

jux d0 mae a fav0ur,
helpp urself. dun run away fr0m da pr0bby anim0re.
uu n0e uu can d0o it, ii n0e uu can.
as ii sae, i'll b there ta helpp if uu nid me.
sigh` ii dun0e wart ta d0 anim0re'
uu askd mae n0rt ta lyk uu,
aren't uu s e l f i s h.
uu n0e it's sh0 supa imp0ssible.
uu noe, n ii n0e- that ii cant request uu ta f0rget sheena ryte away t0o.
c0s we all n0e that uu cant. but it's c0sh uu din try.
even if uu did` uu din try hardd enuff.
ur fwens, mae ..n all' wil b willing ta helpp uu.
uu n0e' d0nt get vexed when uu faced pr0bb.
there's always s0me0ne ta share ur probbs wiif ..mae!

ii n0e uu muz hate chatting wif mae,
c0shh ii'l always t0k b0ut this kinda stuff.
which uu hate, n surprisingly, ii d0 t0o.
ii jux wana make everything clear.
ii wana n0e wart ii shud b d0ing naw.
ii dun wana feel miserable.
at least if ii n0e ii shud st0p lyk9 uu, ii n0e.
alth0ugh im unable t0, but ii n0e.

pls st0pp ass0ciating mae wid dexter.
ii dun lyk him anim0re-
uu n0e it` sh0 pls st0pp it.
it's a damn eeky feel9 when ii n0e uu n0e it n u'r rubbin' it in ~
duhhs`- im s0wii, but yahhs. it ishh'
sh0 please st0p saeing b0ut dexter c0shh ii dun lyk him but uu.
im lyk abit t0o straight ii supp0se, cant b b0thered nia0s*
hurrs ~ ((: ii'v g0t ta sae wart ii'v g0t ta sae.

al in al ..dun delude urself.
if uu try hardd nuff, its p0ssible.
" if there's will, there's a wae "
it's true. believe in it n u'l succeed.
d0nt giv upp halfwae-
its sucha waste uf ur eff0rts then.
ii tynk i'v d0ne preeching,
ii shall b g0ne.

h0pe uu reali t0t b0ut it.
main thingy, d0nt run away fr0m pr0bb.
as ii sae, i'l b there fer uu if uu nid mae !
ii pr0mise, ii will ((:
nytes.

p.s: s0wii f0r da c0ntinu0us menti0ning uf this t0pic.

ii wana l0ve, l0ve w/o hurting ..

ydae was a nyte uf gan kaii ..
siigh` seriously, im sho sick uf lyfe.
y? there a few factors that add upp ta thiis ..

1. ii hate being alone
it suck ta b al0ne. having fwens n a bf/gf ishh diff` no one reali n0es haw im feel9, sumtyms, neither d0 ii.

2. sick uf singapore's fashion trendd
duhhs` damn. everything seems da same. ydae went shoppie, shoppd fer dunoe haw l0n9, nuttin nice ~ those nice ones- damn it, ex =.-x d0ts. uu can c signs uf deisgns uf other shopps in d other ..diaos'

..sh0 on n sh0 f0rthh~

:: lurve lyfe ::
seb seb seb. after our meeting on da 24th, he saidd he wishh ta b left alone- lyk for those few daes. hmm` yeahh- =.-x damn, it was when mua com was down! suckd. well, that's besides da p0int. til naw ii sti dun0e y he nids ta b al0ne. y da sudden urge uf wanting ta b left alone. duhhs- he said he cant ferget his ex ..sheena' a gerl he said he gave everything t0, everything. no 0ne's able ta persuade him 0utta this, n that includes m a e. sho dumbb- but as ii learnt from dexter, these kinda things cant b taught. it must b learnt. learn through mistakes. experience it urself, then uu wil learn. sho, yeahh' shan't tel him wart's he's supp0se ta d0 n stuff. uu c~ coshh he d0esn't noe wart we'r t0king bout til he experiences it. there's sho many qns that's going thru mua mind everydae ..d0es he lyk mae? wart shud ii d0 naw? wart m ii expectd? siighs.* these kinda things jux suckd ..as da t0piic uf this post, ii wana l0ve, w/o hurting. yeahhs` but im unable t0 ..jux sh0 darn'

ii'v t0t b0ut this ..lyk` d0 ii lyk him? d0 ii treat him as an0ther guy wh0m ii said ii lyk but ishh jux an0ther substitude fer dexter? fer da sec0nd qn .. ii seriously haf an ans- it ishh that he's definately nort a sub. coshh ii dun feel for dexter animore. after dexter, da onli guy ii wil b tynking ab0ut wil b him n him n him. ain't this gerl here dumbb. seriously ii felt im dumbb too. fallin' into trapps uf lurve once again. w/o learning frm previous mistakes' d0tx. then again ..ii dun0e wart ii shud d0` haiis.

he's g0ing japan fr0m 10th - 15th uf febb. nice w0rs* mua wishh ta g0 japan agains. ii w0nder when` aniwae- ii tynk mayb ii shud b sending him uff nors* ii dun0e peii can acc0mpany mae n0rts' h0pe sh0 ((: g0t smth fer him ..heyys' that tym mua bro gave mae ch0cs n ii saw it. ii wana leave it fer him, yeahh ((: alth0ugh we'r nort couple. ii jux feel lyk giving it ta him. c= o0hh, after ii get mua pay, gona treat him g0 kb0x nehhs. h0pe nort verii gan ga huhs, haa*

14th uf febb. valentines' dae ~ ain't it s0und great? but yeahh .. darn. im w0rk9 on that freak9 dae. n0 date n stuff' aniwae, valentine's jux a n0rmal dae fer mae ((: h0pe mua w0rk wif janice wil b fun th0ugh ~ hehhs.

:: work ::
ii jux naw received a c0r fr0m supervis0r, asking mae if ii wana w0rk as full tym. ii agreed, since ii'v g0t nuttin ta d0o everydae. ii'v decided ta fill mua lyfe wif jux w0rk n w0rk n nuttin else ii supp0se. ii cant wait ta get mua pay, darn. ii wan ta highlight mua hair BLUE soon! >_< madd sehhs-

g0na go sh0ppie again on m0n ii tynk. h0pe g0t sh0u huo yeahh ~ ((: feel9 sh0 b0redd naw, tynk g0na endd mua p0st yeah? sh0 til then ..cia0s*

x_x haiis'

hmms, mae went 0ut wif seb ydae ..
watchd "meet da f0ckers"
da sh0w was alriite bahhs-
mm.. damn` we kinda get al0ng well?
n0rt reali that embarrassing lyk n0o 0ne t0k n0rs*
hai wo da past few daes bf0r meet9 n on da dae sh0 jing zhang.
jing zhang til ii got stomach crampp lyk can die lerr >_<
duhhs`- budden okaes bahhs..

hmm - sect0r, ii dun0e wana believe uu o0r muaself.
seri0usly, ii wana believe uu-
c0shh` uu n seb alr fwens f0r sh0 l0ng,
sure n0e wart's his character n stuffs ...
siigh' ydae nyte he suddenli tel wo he nids ta b al0ne fer these few daes.
ii kinda sh0ckd.. >_<
feel9 sh0 sadded da wh0le nyte.
thnks alvin, wazii, peiis and zong xiang fer accompanying mae ahhs-
ii'v decided nort ta contact him ..until on 26 d nyte bahhs.
he nids tym sho ii giv him tym ((:
kkaes, that's bout al fer this matter.

ydae went orchard -
saw alot uf pepo ! damn`
haas* dunoe y sho suay d nehhs >_<
bfor watchie movie,
saw niic0le n leslie.
then ii tot we'l b save in da theatres-
hu noes! ii sae ....
l u c a s . l i m ! l0ls'
went carref0ur ta visit nichh ..
on da wae ta da cinemas saw kelly`
then after that ii brought him g0 find peii, f0n9x.
he's nort veri good l0ok9 but aso n0rt verii ugly.
sh0 al in al, its alrite c=
o0h damn, when we came out from toilet that stupid guy pushd mua head..
wana slapp him sehhs x_x hurrs`
wow~ sho he saw 7 uf mua fwens juz in ONE dae !
haas* sho siao-ded.
he's kinda ke aii lahhs~
wee, mae g0t c0ugh sho he bout da supposed "robinsonton" sweet which was actuali "robitussin" fer mae when he saw that ii got c0ugh.
ke aii bahhs ! l0ls, fer mae lahhs-
sho ...yepps`-
hmms' dunoe bahh ..
naw lyk seems lyk ii can do nth ((:
let's leave it to fate?
mayb he got lotsa more niicee gerls out there for him ta cho0se,
sho ~ yepps`-
if there's a more nicer gerl, which guy d0wan ryte.
n ii wun blame him c=
yeahhhhhhhsss ..
endd uf this t0pic niaos*

hmms, mua darn c0m spoil niaos`
damn it n0rs* naw ii hafta use mua bro's com when he's out.
sho eeky n0r' at nyte can onli watch tv-
haiis ..gees >_<
da new com lyk feb then cuming ..
wan mae ta die wors?
w/o com fer sho long T_T
kkaes nia0s*
logg uff.
caoca0s~

..a l 0 n e --aii nehh¿

its been ages since ii bl0ggd ..
sh0 here im ta bl0ggd ((:
ii guessd ii'v a new target-
but im n0rt verii sure t0o`
siigh ..
he cant ferget his ex, but that's besides da pnt~
he as0 neh sae he lyk w0- that's da pnt ((:

n again,
ii neh learn frm mua mistakes-
but ii repeatd da mistake ~
m ii dumbb¿
he said ii nid al0t uf c0urage ta lyk him-
ii kinda agree t0o ~
budden, ii dun0e`
there's things ii cant sae here..
ii dun wana ruin his reputati0n'

then again,
if u'r read9 this-
if uu reali lyk mae nxt tym`
ii h0pe uu reali respect mua dislyk~
((: but f0r naw,
ii jux h0pe fer uu ta get 0ver da 0bstacle ..
c= hehhs`-

peii n kaii break le ~
hmm- h0pe this ishh a ryte ch0ice fer them ..
c= b fwens mahh, nuttin wr0n9 ~

hmm, dun0e wart ta sae ler?
yepps- n0rt w0rk9 naw`
til 18th then start w0rk again ~
sh0 ..yepps-
supa sian naw` s=
endd here nia0s*
caoca0s ~ ^-^

--ii miss sk0ol.* >_<

t0dae ishh bhss d 0pen hse-
al0t uf mua batch d pep0 g0o back sk0ol w0rrs*
sh0 nicee ta b w0k9 arnd in sk0ol wear9 h0me cl0thes + c0l0ured haiir
when u'r c-ing bunch n bunch uf students w0k9 past uu ..
hehes-
abit sadistic XP
budden ha0 hao wan ~ l0ls`
ahhhs ..actuali i miss sk0ol
*s0mpa
s=

hmm ~
bf0r g0ing sk0ol-
met f0n9x, sandii, pEix and chEe Ee..
pei n dEe wana findd new j0bb-
d0wan w0rk at OG lerrs`
hu n0es¿
tml f0n9x g0na g0o w0rk at OG
ahh ~~ s=
l0ls..

im d0ing fine at xccess0ries XP
ahhs ~ that c0nnie d0nt lyk jiafeii-
l0ls` i as0 dun lyk her..
sh0 eeks l0hh !
>_< ahh` dun0e y janice can stand herr~
l0ls- ((janice mua w0rkplace d))
h0pefully im always g0ing ta p.s`
c0shh wiif janice can slackk bit here n there XDD
hehes ..

o0hh, t0dae went back
g0t sae hi ta hammy ..
i tynk he shud b fine ~
alth0ugh t0dae c him lyk abit weird weirdd`
i guess he'l get used to it n b n0rmal s0on ((:
d0nt b anti-s0cial lahh dI ~
hehss XP

saw al0t uf fwens-
miss them l0tzz..
chatted here n there,
hehss c=

ahh ~ karadz sae ii slim le¿
hurrs`- ii dun feel it lehhs !
budden hapii lahh ~ sh0 muz g0o 0n dietin9!!
l0ls ~ XDD
he treatd mae ta a al0e vera driink ~
kinda suckd-
budden since ishh karadz buy d ~
hurrs`- thnks ahh XP
--tym fer mae ta tynk uf a new haiirstyle fer him.*
o0hhh.. CP t0dae w0rk t0wards mae n saiiddd
" yue bian yue mei huh " then snap his finger in fr0nt uf mua face S=
haii w0 chuang da0 f0n9x ! l0ls ~
ahh ..thnks thnks fer al ur nice c0mments XP
*adEl b0ws ~
LOL !

ha0 lahhs .. dun lame nia0s*
saw marc n he c0mplaind b0ut his jc thingy ~
haas- sh0u bu lia0..
budden darn farni,, hehhs-
uu muz c haw pek chek ishh he n his acti0ns ~
wheets* he muz hate YJC ~
l0ls.. sp0ilt his ferst c0uple dance yeahh¿
haas,, i betta d0nt di siao ^-^

left sk0ol at arnd 7 lydat¿
peii helpd mx da gr0upp s0lve pr0bby ~
sh0 draggy n0rs*
then went ta ns eat KFC ..
there was chee Ee, alex(chiang), jin zh0u, pEiix, f0n9x, dEe and maE ~!
haas* kinda weird c0mbi- but ok larr` n0t badd ~
f0n9x went h0me ferst after we finish 0ur meall ..
then kaii came ta meet pEiix..

mae, dEe, kaii n pEiix g0o j8~
ahhs`- kaii seems weirdd d ..
he sae he n0 m0od s=
then sae dun0e y ~
hurrs ! fen ming jiu shi d0wan tel mae y,, kakkas ~
mae n dee wan take ne0priint-
sh0 we phsyc0 peii ta g0o ~
kaii sae he wan g0o t0ilett..
we t0t he d0wan take lehhs !
hu n0es he went ta style his hair !!
>_< kaoos ~!~! neh sae earlier siaaa...
n he sae we g0o take ne0print fer 1hr S=
we g0ot dec0rate sh0 l0ng mehhs¿
*dia0s ~ haas-
i haven pass da ne0prints ta ce ask him scan w0rs*
waiit til i d0o that then i wil upl0ad n p0st in bl0g
XDD * qing shi mu yi dai ~ *
i pers0nally feel that da piics r n0rt badd lahhs..
hees .. (^-^)v

hmm ..saddy thingy happend-
d0nt feel lyk menti0n9,
i juz realised im as dumbb as eva ~
shudn't b deceived anim0re s=
haiis .. gan kai ~
aniwae, d0esn't matter lahh
suan le c=

al in al ~ i miss sk0ol ~!
ahh .. i'v n0 w0rk tml !! XDD
slack at h0me ..
"(z(oO)z)" pigggyyyy at h0me ~
hehes ..i g0o slp le..((actual tym ishh 5dec 3am))
SUPA tiired !
*Y A W N S ~
--excuse mae.*
hehes XP
n0ites aL ~ pyepye..

p.s : i changd da bl0g tym + date..5 dec 3 am bl0ggggg...that means muz sae as ydae.. lazy lahhh- hehs XP

:: wil i b able ta c wart's aheadd uf mae¿ ::

ahhs .. yepps`-
marc, naw i t0talli agree..
sh0 muchhie fer saeing frens r m0re impt-
tynk9 backk uf this..
makes tynk 0therwiise uf stuffs~

but that's nort reali da pnt-
yeahh` i agree uu al treat frens superbly well t0o-
this ishh n0rt da issue uf F R I E N D S fer naw..

things r 0ver n d0ne wiif ..
leave it n d0nt rake up da pastt-
mayb ii shudn't b writin9 thiis but..
warteva ~
seri0usly speak9,
its n0rt b0ut da l0ck9 upp part-
uu al juz d0nt get it..
sh0 wart if da r0om wasn't l0ckd¿
uu tynk we'l g0o in¿
kkaes- can sae kh n clarence did g0o in-
did uu c mae n ce g0o in¿
uf c0s kh haf da damn ryte ta g0o in-
c0shh ishh HIS chalet-
"HIS" as in he b0okd it
he has every damn ryte ta d0o sh0..
ahh >_< haiis`

try putt9 urselves in mae n ce's sh0es ..
d0nt sae 3 c0uples..
even if there's 0nli 1 pathetic c0uple in there-
we'l as0 n0rt tynk uf g0ing in there`
fcukd..
g0o in n ¿
act lyk a f0ol¿
ahh ..s0wii if im 0ver react9 but that's simply da pnt !

uu al ap0logiesd but n0rt n0e-ing wart's wr0n9..
then i d0nt c da p0int`
i dun care even if it's l0ckd..
as marc sae ~
mayb uu al can yi shi yi shi leave it 0pen..
alth0ugh it d0esn't make a diff -
yeahhs ~
da pnt ishh-
wart fcuk r we supp0se ta d0o in da r0om when 3 c0uples r at there gett9 intimate`
haiis.. i simply dun wiish ta p0st this bl09`
this ishh mua 0nli wae uf vent9 mua anger-
yeahhs .. a n g e r
ishh it reali anger¿
mayb.. o0r juz pure disapp0intment that uu al faild ta c wart's wr0n9-
superbly s0wii if i said smth supa wr0n9..
but that's wart ii feel ..

haiis - seri0usly supa dun feel lyk saeing b0ut thiis..
may this thing b put in da past, 0ver n d0ne wiif ~
mayb being A L O N E..
livin9 in mua 0wn w0rldd- will b a s0luti0n`
ahh~ x.x" siighs*
t0dae's da start9 uf a new year ~
n0 new year res0luti0n th0ugh..
get g0od results fer o's ¿
mayb ..

that's b0ut al ~
as fr0st set in da t0piic --
"i would like to take this opportunity 2 (Wish/Curse)*..(all/u)*..a..(Happy/Sad)*..(New/Old)*..Year.. May u Stay (Happy/Sad)*..(Always/Forever!)*, positive pple read left(__/),negative pple read right(/__). god (blast/Bless)* you. i'll see u around in 2005. "


may thiis new year be a j0yful 0ne .. hapii new year t0o al ~
--mwahhs.*

--siigns-uff.* ((seri0usly n0 offence ta al~))